You're never beaten until you admit it.

It’s hard for me to really pinpoint my emotions. Emotionally numb? In denial? Completely fine? I have no idea. All I know is that I want to escape. Nothing really makes me happy. Life…just is. I wake up, go through the same tedious boring routine. I go to class. Then don’t do work. Sit around. Think. Space out. Sleep. Lay in bed. 

I don’t do my work. but what’s worse is i dont care. I do enough to sustain my academics, to give the impression that I am fine. I laugh with my friends, but when people ask me about myself, I deflect the question and turn it back on them. How can I verbalize my thoughts and tell people how I feel when I can’t even explain it to myself?